It's been just over three years since I started this journal, declaring it a record of my journey toward hollywood, and a lot has changed since then, even if my ambition hasn't. I've made and lost friends, had and hated boyfriends, graduated from high school at the top of my class, moved 2500 miles away from my family. I've watched my stalwart and conservative mother have a mid-life crisis and come out happier than ever, even though she isn't anywhere near anywhere she ever intended to be. Sometimes I've kept this journal and sometimes I haven't, just like sometimes I've been focused on my dreams and sometimes I've been focused on being the prettiest girl at prom. But I'm well on my way to getting what I planned, or it feels that way. I'm studying screenwriting at the top film school in the world, and finally discovering what I think my creative voice and mission are meant to be. In the rigorous honors program at the school, I'm learning more about ideas than I ever have, making straight As, and realizing that no matter what I end up doing in my life, the one thing I must have is the ability to always learn. And I'm discovering, a little bit at a time, that I don't have to stifle my development as a writer or my personal life to make the other one worthwhile. And an opportunity just might have fallen into my lap that is gonna change everything.
I have a long, long way to go still. I know that. But right now, it's all happening. And I just wanna enjoy the ride.
"You're cynical and beautiful You always make a scene You're monochrome delerious You're nothing that you seem I'm drownin' in your vanity Your laugh is a disease You're dirty and you're sweet You know you're everything to me"